Rufus Collar

Thanksgiving was great! Spent time with my girlfriend and her parents, and my parents. Lots of relaxation, and overall awesomeness.

I picked up one of my favorite book, Ender’s Game, and read it in a record-breaking, marathon of three days! I haven’t read a book for leisure in almost 7 years! I have decided that I need to read more as it seemed to be a very cathartic and stress-relieving activity for me. I also bought a companion novel to Ender’s Game; Ender’s Shadow. I haven’t gotten very far in it, but have enjoyed the first chapter.

I also have taken up drinking hot tea. Last week, I did sound for a play that went up last Thursday, and over Friday, and Saturday I drank about 6 cups of flavored tea while doing sound. Also a cathartic and stress-relieving activity, one I plan on usurping more frequently.

At the beginning of last week, some news was broken to me regarding my work situation. My boss has been deployed with his Army National Guard unit, and will be leaving for a years tour at the end of January. We have until then to get several things accomplished: (1) Figure out how we are going to deal with his absence, for which we have several options. (2) Stabilize the network infrastructure so that things will be easily recoverable while he is gone (and when he gets back). Lots to do, and not much time to do it in, but so far we are making decent time.

Needless to say, this could very well throw a monkey wrench in what I had been planning, and is a prime example of God showing his child that his timing and plans are best even when we can’t see them that way. I am of the opinion that God’s will is being done here, and I am eager to see how God intends to let things pan out. Things may still work out the way I was hoping for (and had previously felt that God was leading in the direction of), but they may not. This next week will determine this for the most part, and so I will pray that I will be able to discern God’s direction for my immediate future.

Oh, just updated to WordPress 3.0.2. Not sure what is new in this update (or the last one for that matter), but I’m curious. Nothing that reading the release notes and change-log won’t fix .

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I find that there are only a few portions of my life at this point in time that I am content with. These being my relationship with my girlfriend, which in some ways I am not content with as I am always trying to move forward in it, my family, and my spirituality, again which I am determined to continue growing in. That leaves a good amount of things left in the other category. …

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I started thinking about this at lunch…I have no idea why I did, but I did. Oh, by the way, I don’t have a beard anymore (RANDOM) more about that later mayhaps, more about what I was thinking about now. …

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So.

What IS with that airline food anyways?

Do you ever wonder about what it would be like to live somewhere else?  Like really to live somewhere else…not like “oh, I don’t think I’d like to live there”, or “I couldn’t afford to move that far away”.  Like, what if you were born there.  What if you were born in some other country, and grew up in a different house, in a different town where society is quite different from what we know.  Would things be simpler? More complicated?   …

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I had a hand in on this video…mixed the audio as well as layin the sweet beat down and edited video for it.  Girlfriends Dad likes to do all these crazy projects and he got me involved in this one.

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so, that schrodingers cat that I thought might have been alive…pretty sure i was wrong. all of it was wrong. But my hindsight is 20/20…or maybe i still need glasses. Not sure. anyways, lots has changed since….May. Broke up with my then-girlfriend cus it just wasn’t right. Have a new one now, and EVERYTHING feels right about this relationship. We both feel God wants this relationship, and good things are happening in it. Wait, lets change that to great things! …

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Today, my friend Sean and I decided to look into RSA cryptography. This is exactly how crazy we are (and bored apparently). I found it amusing, I’m not sure how he felt about it.

Anyways, here is what we came up with after about 4 hours of number crunching and prime numbering (and a fair amount if wikipedia-ing).
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How long is long enough?
I feel like I can’t tell.
It’s really been a year now,
but honestly only 6 months…

In both situations I found change,
For good, for bad; not sure…
But change brings wisdom to young eyes
Like rain washes my car for free.

So with this wisdom,
Bestowed upon me by my experiences,
Why is it that I am unable
To find an answer to my question?

How long is long enough?
An answer would shed light
Enough to illuminate this world…
And the next.

How long IS long enough?

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In the week and a few days since my last post I have found a map of sorts. I now know pretty much where I am emotionally, I know where I’m not spiritually which gives me an idea of where I might be, and I have a good idea of what direction I am going. For those of you who are familiar with any navigational terminology, I would be using a technique called ‘dead-reckoning’. Essentially, for those of you who aren’t as savvy with a map (and there’s nothing wrong with that…until you buy a garmin or a Tom-Tom YOU CHEATERS!!! lol), dead-reckoning is when you have to guess where you are based on landmarks, knowledge of speed and direction, and some simple math if you are so inclined. In WWII, navigators in bombers used this technique and could navigate quite accurately.

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A friend from High School that I started hanging out with last weekend asked me to go to this dance/masquerade thing tonight. I agreed to go because she offered to give me gas money. I feel bad though cus at one point I had tentative plans with another friend involving movies and hang-out awesomeness. She seems ok that we aren’t hanging out, but I feel like I’ve blown her off….as reassuring as she has been that its not a big deal, it eats at the back of my mind.
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